Motherland: The Return Of The Grandma

Left my dad's place yesterday. On our last day together my grandma(his mom) showed up in Bucharest for some doctor's appointment. I love her dearly and all but God why oh why does she have to kiss my neck everytime she sees me??? Kiss on the cheek= normal greeting, but neck grandma kissing= freeeeeeaky. It creeps me out. She hangs on to me and kisses my neck, i swear, like a vampire!! Gross!

I arrived in Iasi at 12:10 am last night and found out that we're invited to go to a party.
I've just been on a train for 6/7 hours, i'm in no party mood, right? Wrong. Because you see, when i'm tired i act just like when i'm drunk, which is very happy-like. LOL. I've never been proper drunk though, so maybe i'm wrong. The party was kick ass! I only knew 2 people-ish there, but i suppose that made it more fun. It was Cosmin's (actor i met 2 years back) birthday. Happy Birthday!!! By the time we got there everyone was pretty drunk, including birthday boy who was wasted and doing some sort of african ritual dance around the room LOL.
Cake...food... and good music. Ze awesomeness!
Left at about 3am when i was very close to getting into someone else's car.
Now... bright and early (for me) we're all (auntie, mom, grandma, uncle) going to the oh so mighty village where my grandma and grandpa live.

Dad and neck-kissing-grandma are back in their own homes. Thanks Dadster for everything and i hope you know i had ze awesomeness time with you, okie dokie? I love the way we take excessive amounts of pictures LOL - every street corner!!

Moving on to mom's side of the family...see how that goes...
No internet btw, that village's too sexeh for the net =) So no updates till i get back to civilisation.
Let's hope a cow doesn't eat me or something. Evil scary creatures.

-happy dance-

Went shopping with my dad today and after 5 hours of looking, walking and switching between 2 particular stores, we went home with a flatscreen Toshiba 81" diagonal TV aaaaaaand a phone. TV for him, phone for me, quite a sweet deal, i think! It makes ze awesomeness of a 15th birthday present! =)
I've never actually had a proper phone that does more than make phonecalls and "atempt" to take photos that are useless to me since i can't download them. That's why this phone.. is fabulously fabulous, fantastically fantastic and well..fabtastic overall!!! And since i'm an official phone geek now here's the nitty gritty.
Damn this thing has everything. I'm in heaven. In materialism heaven LOL.
It's red&black, soft and slidy and dreamy and... OMG i think i'm in love with it! =O
Thank you Dadster, i will love you forever. And they say you can't buy affection. Pshhhhhhhh.
-happy danceeeee-

Why Walk When You Can Dance?

You've probably heard Faithless feat Estelle - Why Go before, it's a song i love. It's just so rhythmic, makes me get up and dance everytime! Song's been out for a long time now LOL, but i only saw the video today. If you haven't seen it, watch this.
It's ze awesomeness!! =) Somehow it makes perfect sense, too. Why walk when you can dance? Or maybe it doesn't make any sense at all and i'm crazy. I love it just the same.
I don't mind being crazy as long as i'm happy. And i am..both crazy and happy.
It's all good... it's all good... =)

Motherland: The Beginning

1am
Oh how i could've just slept on... But nope. At 1am i was on the bus. On the very cold, full of geriatrics bus to Gatwick. Yay...

2am
Starting to resemble death. Just a more uh...human version of death.

4am
Finally at the damn airport. About time!!

5am
Checking in... Security stops me because i hold a Romanian passport. Yes ALERT ALERT romanian trying to invade! Oh please, just let me go through you screwed up check-in person, you're just as tired as i am. How sucky must that be? A night shift as the check-in dude/dudette. Dang!! =O

7am
Still looking like death, after 2 more hours of wait/dozing off even more so. Everyone around me looks all friggin smiley faced and AWAKE... Geez. I wish i had a tent, then i could just camp there and sleep...

8am-11am
Finally on the damn thing. I must have the flying toddler curse or something because i always manage to sit right in front of a screaming kid. Why oh why?? All i wanted was to sleep, is that too much to ask for??
It's your fault you have a kid, OK? Not mine. So make it shut up before i stuff this useless Easyjet magazine down his throat, damnit!! =O
And ya know...i could've dealt with it if it was constant. But NOOOO , this kid was like my alarm clock, you never know when it's gonna attack. As i dozed off, getting used to the whole screaming extravaganza, i was in peaceful NapLand when i get this HARD kick in the back. Uh huh. Easyjet needs some serious new seats, people. Hyper kid was dancing. Yes, dancing, using my seat as his dancefloor.
Let's just say that... i wasn't the kid's biggest fan right then. The parents were just like "awww how cute". I was about to turn around.. smack their heads together and get the kid's seat belt and tie him up, then put him in the overhead compartment. Voila! Job done.
Sadly that was just a daydream.

11am-now
Hello Romania... so we meet again! Pretty darn good. Still haven't slept for over 50 hours but i look less like death, since I had a shower, some food and spent quality time with ze Dadster. =)
I'm happy now.
Although sleep is needed. Badly.

Packing here, packing there, packing everywhere!!

Cliff got home from South Africa last night. My mom and I are leaving tonight LOL. There are suitcases downstairs, upstairs and in between. Cliff's trying to unpack his gear and us trying to pack everything. We leave at 1am...oh how fun that will be. After not having slept properly for 48 hours.. another sleepless night is what i need!
2 hours-ish to get to Gatwick... then 2 hours wait for the check-in to start, then another 2 hours of wait to actually ride them clouds! x_x
God...you test my patience rather too often, i think. LOL. I mean... 2 weeks home alone with my mother? Gosh that's quite the endurance test plus patience! We didn't kill eachother, after all it wasn't so bad. =)

Necessary to survive this journey:

• Fully charged iPod.
• Fully charged camera.
  
• FOOD. (chocolate included)

You don't want to be stuck with a hungry Ruru for 10 hours-ish. I'm not exactly friendly when i'm hungry.
I turn into a beast. LOL.

Drifting Anonymously

I'm drifting from you.
Now this is terrible but i think it's simpler for both of us now to go our own ways and not look back.
Remember how we said that no matter what, there isn't a me and you, there is always an "us" ? Well i still believe in that. There will always be an us. No doubts about that. (here comes the dreaded "but"..) But you seem to be struggling and i seem to be getting in the way. I don't want to leave and let you struggle but I don't know what else to do, i can't seem to make you see my view on things.
It seems careless and cold, i know. And i'm sorry.
I will say goodbye, but that's not true because it's not good at all. It's a painful bye. Yeah. Painfulbye my friend.

50 things to do before I die

1. Become a fully fledged life saving doctor.
2. Fall in love truly and completely.
3. Become fluent in mandarin.
4. Eat snails.
5. Achieve black belt.
6. Own a house.
7. Tour America with my best friends.
8. Move country at least once more.
9. Go to uni and have the time of my life.
10. Make enough money to buy my mom the house with the huge garden.
11. Get a dog.
12. Defeat fear of cows. LOL. Evil things they are.
13. Kiss someone at the perfect place and perfect time.
14. Write a novel.
15. Have a Christmas with ALL of my family, romanians..british..japanese..americans..
16. Bungee Jump.
17. Sky dive.
18. Go to Cedar Point Amusement Park, Ohio.
19. Go on all the rides there.
20. Kiss someone in Paris.
21. Learn to ride a bike!!
22. Meet DK.
23. Take a gap year.
24. Have a seasonal job at a ski resort, as a ski guide.
25. Live with my stepsister.
26. Get married.
27. Have a 24 hour wedding/party.
28. Have a non-snotty non-crying adorable baby.
29. Switch lives with somebody for more than a week.
30. Sleep/lay awake under the stars.
31. Do the chacha with somebody without music.
32. Sing and dance to "baby got back" with a bad indian accent in a crowded elevator.
33. Write a love letter to Mr. Copson.
34. See Titanic in the cinema again. If not, buying a DVD will have to do.
35. Tickle one of the Queen's guards.
36. Dive with sharks.
37. Meet LT.
38. Just chill on a boat with someone special.
39. Tell my dad i forgive him and love him just the same.
40. Run a marathon.
41. Reach age 70.
42. Try pot.
43. Make lemon porn. (wtf?!)
44. Put all my belongings in a box, hide it and draw a treasure map for it.
45. Go to a rock music festival.
46. Read the WHOLE Bible...not just fragments.
47. Have a swing in my back garden.
48. Walk through a desert.
49. Tell everybody how i feel about them.
50. Achieve happiness.

If you only knew..

Spring break FINALLY!!!
I'm thinking a lot about Romania. Hell...i've never stopped thinking about it, but these few days more intensely than usual. What if i forget? What if i forget what it was like? Leave it all behind one morning? I'm not ready to let go of those 12 and a half years of my life.
This is my 3rd year in England, my 3rd school year and finally i feel less of an intruder. Less of a stranger, less alone.
I finally feel more comfortable with the idea of living here, it doesn't seem so strange anymore. I guess it's normal for it not to be a smooth run over from Romania to England since...it's so incredibly different.
I'm scared of losing touch with what i was and who i knew... I still miss it everyday but i don't wish i was there everyday, not anymore.
I figured what happened was that i couldn't let go of the people i eventually had to leave behind. That's why i found it so hard to warm up to anybody here. I warmed up to Cliff, my stepdad, eventually. I guess that was the biggest step, not to feel like an intruder in the house you live in.

I miss it though... I miss my friends, just the way we used to hang out, the way we used to be. The roadtrips we took, my memories are still with me.
I miss family terribly. Although even in Romania, we never were all together, my family is scattered all across the country. It was still comforting that they were a phonecall or 13 hour train journey away.

Now everyone is in a different timezone. One phonecall away that costs £5 a minute. And i don't think i could handle the train journey to get there.

And you ask me everytime...What's it like there? How are you? Is it different? Do you miss us?
If you only knew...

I wish you'd stop asking. I wish you knew how i felt, but you don't, you can't. It's me who has to deal with trying to fill up this emptiness as much as possible every year... as much as can go in at a time, from one visit. To last me for another year.

Sensations

They come under Walkers. All flavours are amazing, but Sensations Thai Sweet Chilli is way above all.
A lotta E numbers but i reckon it's worth it!
Ohhhh yes...... Even the packaging looks yummy to me. But then again, i'm starving.

Pacing

Teachers who pace up and down the classroom constantly should be shot. It's a classroom, not a treadmill, geez!

Guess Who Got Published?

Can you guess? Oh yes. Me. =)
My poem "Deadly Flight" finally got published and i received the ordered copies of the book today.
It's pretty cool because there are people i know who got published in the same book too, so in 30 years time we can look at what shite we used to write. :))
"Hey look, i used to write about...dead bugs!"...."oh oh mine was about cow turd!!" Fascinating stuffs. :)
So in your face Mr. Copson!!! Ha. My dead bug poem did kick ass, in contrary to what you said! Angry old man.
Well done to everyone that successfully made it in the book!! =)

P.S They had to print bastard as b*****d. LOL. Hehe.

No Grading AGAIN

I'm beyond upset. I'm proper sad now. And to make me sad...it takes quite a bit.
God... another week. We went to the school where it was supposed to be and...well guess what?! There never ever was tae kwon-do at that school, EVER, let alone a GRADING. We found this out from a Karate instructor.......LOL........ Now... i'm trying not to believe this but i'm starting to think my instructor lied to me. I really really hope that my mother's instincts are wrong... Although her predictions were right.
I just can't even begin to comprehend how someone would do something like this.
First he says that it was cancelled because of some branches fallen after the storm or something (last Monday) - AS IF. Really now, what has the grading got to do with the blocked road? There are plenty of roads around!!
Second i find out that well... there is no grading today. And there never will be one at that school LOL. Since it only does KARATE.
Thirdly we waited for him to show up there, and he didn't- his excuse: was lost.
You don't just think of a random school and tell people to go there and then not show up, you just don't do that!!!
I'm telling myself that...he couldn't have...it's impossible... it must all be a big missunderstanding, it wasn't his fault.
And i hope to God that i'm right and my mom's wrong.
Gah and i was so so ready. I was so ready last week. And ready 2 weeks ago when i missed it because of Belgium. I can't wait until June to grade. I CAN'T. If i have to grade in Liverpool i will, and he'd better give me a lift there. =O
I am too sad for words. I just hope it won't turn into anger followed by hatred. I don't want to hate him. I'm supposed to look up to him, to follow his steps in the art.
I'm so disappointed..

GÜ

There are certain things that one should eat before they die. =)
One of them is GÜ dark chocolate and almond torte. As seen here.
If that has your attention then check out the chocolate banoffees.
Scratch that!! Anything by GÜ is delicious...

Quasar

Quasar is now on the list of things that i REALLY enjoy doing!!
Maybe i'm a future psycho that likes shooting people, but chill, i don't have laser or machine guns in the house. Although Cliff's a "copper" and he might have some stuffs, anyways i don't know where those are hidden! LOL.
It was ze awesomeness... my team lost though, since there were only 2 people attacking and the rest were sorta just zooming about grrrrrr. Jon ran into me from a corner and nearly gave me a broken clavicle with his laser gun!! If he wasn't on my team he would've gotten the classic reflex punch i have for assholes. Team's gotta stick together though, no?

I have a cold. Having a cold at the weekend is no fun. Can't even skip school on the pretext that my brain is affected and my neurons are frozen. My sneezing extravaganza just stopped, thank God!! After you sneeze 17 times in a row (yes SEVENTEEN) it gets a bit boring/annoying. Training tonight too. -Sigh-
Kleenex..how i loveth thee, my hero.

No Grading

Ended up not grading Monday. Huge disappointment. I was so ready!! Grading upcoming Monday instead, yays! =)
Got a high A grade on english assessment, very proud of that. I can now go up to chavs and say: " Sucka, you've been speaking this all your life and you're getting an E grade :O " E grade...holy shit.
Eh well it could be worse, like... getting an U (ungraded). You have to try equally hard to get an A or U i think. I mean... Ungraded, how do you manage that??...true skills LOL. Will attempt it. But of course not on exams LOL, just for funzies on tests. On exams i'd rather aim for As, thanks very much.

Quasar tomorrow! Dark rooms and laser guns.. Awesomeness!!! =)

Little Fit Ship

LOL. This is what we do in maths lessons...



Aboard The Little Fit Ship!!!










Main characters:
Yuan!

















Little Chav Boy!!!

















Hitler!!

















Naked Woman o.0


















FitBoy!!! LOL

















Oh What Fun :)) Also around and about the ship: Big Fit Shark, Little Emo Boy and Ruxy. But because FitBoy was too big, these could not fit in the ship =)

Credits: Drawings mostly by Yui. Hitler and ChavBoy by Ruru.
Names by Ruru.
Other ideas by crazy random people.

Mama

De ziua ta iti spun Te Iubesc. Eu pe tine te iubesc mereu, enorm, 24/7 dar nu o pot spune. Nu stiu de ce...ma frustreaza, deschid gura sa spun si nu pot. E blocat.
Esti eroina mea, te admir in fiecare zi pentru ce ai facut pentru mine, si pentru ce faci si azi. Pentru mine tu esti o mama incredibila, cea mai buna, nu te-as schimba pentru nimic, niciodata. Nici cand strigi la mine sa-mi fac temele.
Imi cer mii de scuze pentru ca mai des decat as vrea te enervez, iti fac sa-ti creasca tensiunea si sa te superi pe mine. Nu vreau sa te supar, dar din nou.. cand vreau sa-mi cer scuze... E blocat. Eu vreau sa spun, jur.
Fara tine eu n-as fi... deloc. Daca ai pleca acum, lumea mea s-ar bloca toata.
Am observat ca prietenilor le pot spune te iubesc si iarta-ma, dar asta pentru ca nu tin la ei nici macar un sfert de sfert din cat tin la tine. Pentru ca atunci cand ii supar pe ei...simt numai un sfert de sfert decat cand te supar pe tine.
Tu m-ai ridicat cand am cazut si ai avut grija de mine mereu. Si azi ma ridici de unde se pare ca ma ingrop singura, ma ridici si ma indrumi.
La Multi Ani, Te iubesc, Multumesc si Iarta-ma. Lucruri pe care ar trebui sa le spun in fiecare zi...nu sunt spuse. Sunt mandra sa fiu fiica ta si sper sa nu te dezamagesc.

Uite. O dalie perfecta. Yours are better.

Grading!

Big day tomorrow. Mom's birthday + Got english assessment with Mr. Copson... + Taekwondo grading. I'm actually looking forward to it!! Too bad Cliff'll miss my grading though. Whilst I punch air to impress judges he'll be chillin on a dive boat on the South Atlantic Ocean. Now..that's just not fair. He's gone for 2 weeks!!! Gone. =(

Good news though. My next victim is coming up. Romania...bring it onnn!!!! Motherland!!! Supposed to see my dad there too, haha. He's always a blast.
I always need something good to count down to, i'm too impatient.
lalalalalala, one week and a half till Easter hols!!! One week and a half and 3 hours and 20 minutes and 30 seconds...and.....LOL.

Belgiummmmmm

So here goes:

Ypres!!

Errr... Dead folks. Rest in peace.














Trenches!
Oh yeah sexeh wellies.













LOL
Seb's arse. I have a valid explanation for this too! We were in a pitch black tunnel through the trenches and the only way to see was to use camera flash.See? Completely innocent LOL.


One of the maaaaaaaany cemeteries.
Rest in peace.


Oh geez. Yep. We're all going to hell. What can i say...it was hella fun anyway!!














Now, let me introduce you to part of the gang. LOL.

Introducing...Helen aka best friend. =) -crowd cheers-

Please don't murder me for putting this picture up.LOL.


Next up...-drum roll-
Seb aka trench sexeh ass! LOL



LOL Seb..sorries but this picture doesn't express the truly masculine ferocious beast that is Ze Sebster. lmao!!


Noemi has links to the italian mafia and has hidden guns in places that you can't think of LOL :) Don't mess with Noemi!!
















LMAO

Scary shit.
< me. lol.
I don't need weapons LOL, if i'd pop out of the darkness like that with a flashlight after 1am you'd just go unconcious anyways. =)







A few snaps.
Total of pics taken in Belgium= 348 :O
Total amount of chocolate bought in Belgium= a LOT.
Total of fun had= too much to keep track with.
=)

Youtube-ing

Whilst youtube-ing today, i found The Sad Songs Channel. Well, i'm not sad, but it made me think.
I'm actually quite happyjoyjoy now because I think i got my beloved oh so much needed Popsy back.

I found a video of All Good Things Come To An End by Nelly Furtado. This is how it goes, in case you didn't know.

"Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?"

Maybe they do. But I'd rather try and see, than not try at all. If you don't try you're a noob, OK?

On the same youtube channel i found Des'Ree with Kissing You, Romeo&Juliet theme song. I only had one person in mind whilst listening to that song. and yes it was of the opposite sex and not of my relatives.... LOL...-blushessss- OK so. Yeah. Maybe Ruru has a crush. =)

"Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you my soul cried"

Beautiful song...

Oh Noes!!!

I'm grounded. LOL. My laptop has been kidnapped by evil parents and i sure hope there will be sign of it in the near future!! This means no pictures from Belgium. =( But but, it's not all bad!! I still have lots and lots of chocolate from Belgium. Haha. Love that place. The streets there are : chocolate shop, chocolate shop, bar, chocolate shop chocolate shop, jewelery shop, bar, chocolate shop, chocolate shop and so on. It's aaaaaamazing!!

Oh but the museums and architecture and beauty of the place.......and Ah screw it, the chocolate is all that i really cared about, OK? Is that so bad?!

The trip was officially ze awesomeness.
Helen, Noemi, Rebecca, Seb you guys are officially ze awesomeness!!!
This random kid we met, Michael too is ze awesomeness. That kid just rocks. =)

What the trip was about was visiting battlefields and graveyards from WW1, basically. Well, thank you friends. I've never had SO much fun in a cemetery before!! Also never nearly suffocated from laughter in a cemetery before. Gosh, we're all going to hell. =O

More when i get Popsy back. (Popsy= laptop)