Breathe!

This week has been exhausting. 5 days of school since Easter holidays and it feels like a month!
For the past 4 days i've been physics-ing. I finally handed in my project today.

Today i can relax, and i'd be a fool not to!
I was browsing through some blogs today and found numerous suicidal "thoughts".
Now suicide is something i don't understand. I understand that people deal with emotion in their own way, but to find suicide to be your only option out, whatever is happening to you must be pretty damned bad. However, on a less compassionate side of it all, you must be blind not to learn from your problems and not see the possible good outcome of it all.

I worry about some of my friends, that they might once have a moment of insanity and do something stupid like that. I'm sorry, but i can't describe suicide as anything other than stupid.

Mr. Wass, one of my teachers, who's subject i honestly don't know the name or meaning of, has taught me more than probably any of my teachers have. He is an inspiration to me, he truly is.
He taught me to find the best in people and not "look for splinters in one's eye". That's why, it worries me that some people i know just give up on themselves after a rough patch.
I believe the worst, most dangerous thing you can do to yourself is give up on who you are.
I know that if my friends are in a hole, digging themselves in, i'll be there to get them out, get the dirt off and slap them for stupidity, but i'd only slap because i care.

Speaking of friends, i noticed today what i knew for the past 3 years subconsciously. I realised that EE is a true friend to me. And that's nice to know. =)

It's the weekend, i can breathe in again before exams start. That's nice to know too!

Who Knew?!

Who knew school could actually be a blast? Especially a Monday and the first day back from holidays?

Here's the "gossip" (the good kind):

• JM isn't getting expelled anymore!
  
• Ruru got an A* on her english essay =O -happy dance-
  
• Ruru's birthday is coming up soon.
• Helen aka best friend got Taekwondo "pijamas" today!!! =)
  

That's gotta be worth a happy dance, no? -happy dance-

P.S I wasn't sure how you people(the english) spell pijamas so i typed that into Google and it showed me the things you wear when you go to bed, so it must be correct. LOL.

It Snowed!!!

So there is hope in England after all. It snowed today, for the first time since i moved here. =)
EE called me at 7am and persisted for me to answer after i think i hung up on her twice. I'm sorry about that by the way, EE. I think it's best if you wait and try to reason with me after at least 9am on a Sunday morning. But in the end, i picked up the ringing phone and looked out the window. This is what i found:

Not really much snow, but enough to make me smile. =)

Motherland: Recording Good Times

Happy people =)













Museum porn!!
Naked dude =O
















Lookie that!


















I have another shot of this with less blurr but i sorta like the thing i'm doing with my hand it
looks supernatural o.0
I bet you can't do that. Hehe LOL.


I like this one...
We took pictures with most the animals there although taking pictures was strictly forbidden. There was this lady that was giving us a really evil look; if she wasn't an employee then she was just weird!









If i get
another chance
at life as a fish,
i'm so totally
being that fish.











Yes, i used to be mayor. Lotsa things you didn't know about me...







For some reason I took pictures with all these statuesque hunks at the National History Museum Grigore Antipa.

But i'll only post 2, since they are way too
sexeh for this blog.










-Poke-
Dude had holes instead of eyes, he was practically asking for it!!













If i'm right, this painting is at Palatul Sutu, Bucharest right now.
It makes my skin crawl. WTF is up with that kid? It looks like a 40 year old man with a 3 year old body. Freaky shit. And why the grapes? I really need to learn to "appreciate art" more.




A pretty bleak
place that had a
glimpse of sunshine
coming through.
On the way to the airport...







LOL Classic!!You often see those on normal roads too, which is pretty intriguing for foreigners. =)





Picture says it all....
Proudly telling you that....he is my uncle. LOL *crowd cheers*
I think that's the best shot i took. :))









Another trip over and Motherland, goodbye. Till we meet again...

Colours

It used to be red. Ruby red like the jewel and more. Its temperature warming her inside, blasting heat from the uncontrollable energy it conveyed underneath the thin, scribbled layer of love it was wrapped in. Unbelievably stunning, old fashioned writings so neat, as if measured, calculated, carefully drawn majestically on her love holder won war over the unarranged, painful scribblings that although less relevant stood out like thin metal needles dipped in cyanide, ready to defend against yet another intruder.

It is now black. Black with anger, black like death, so black that it stole her breath. It is now a cold, colourless, perpetually rainy place where the radiant, passionate feelings judge used to be.
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First comments:
Ruru: Is it descriptive enough?
Cliff: It's sickly descriptive.
Ruru: Good good.
Cliff: What's a love holder and a feelings judge?
Ruru: Her heart.
Cliff: Oh... you completely lost me there.

Cliff's a completely factual person that does not get literature and Mr. Copson's "doings" at all whatsoever. I love that about him. I show him every single one of my writings because his comments are golden. =) Cliff's ze awesomeness.

Welcome Home, I Missed You..

Hello England. Again.

My parents don't approve of my new phone. Ah well. Tough.
If you can't understand my crave for technology, then that's fine. But don't expect me to stop it just like that. It has nothing to do with you, i don't make you pay for it. It's something that makes me happy, and it's sad that you don't get that. You have no right to make me feel bad about it.

If i talk to my parents, i have to do it with one at a time, because otherwise i might just end up very angry/frustrated/sad or all of those mentioned. With Cliff i talk about photography and important things. On the other hand with mom i talk about taekwondo or anything else that is not serious. But if i talk to them both at the same time... we talk about me. And that's awful. They give the full-on "we were kids too, we have made the mistakes before you" yeah yeah yeah! OK, let me make mine and stop directing my every move. Then they wonder why i'm turning into a grumpy typical teenager.
Sheesh, parents, eh?

On a happier non-complaining note, i went back right into full blast Taekwondo training. Free sparing today too, fun fun fun!! Also grading to be expected this next week. =)

Since i've been gone for so long, let's do some english essays Ruru, shall we? Yes, we shall.
LOL, make Mr. Copson proud.

P.S Motherland2008 pictures coming ASAP after i finish my english work.

Rain

One of the joys of being a woman/girl is eyebrow plucking. Personally it's the worst experience i've had in my life. I hate it. I hate it because it makes me cry!! LOL. I can't even control the tears, they just run down from the pain. Sheesh. That eyepluckerwoman gets paid to torture people! What sort of sick twisted job is that, eh??

I leave today. Is it raining because Romania's sad i'm leaving or is it just God getting me used to the England weather? Either way, it's making me sad.

Last night i had a nightmare and woke up at 4am. I tried to resume sleeping but..no chance.

My world is usually sunny, just not today.
Not to worry, the weather forecast looks promising for tomorrow =)

Motherland: Wonder Toilet!

Back to civilisation. Mighty village experience...hmm.....could've gone better. The mud/dust/poop everywhere is a minus though. If you've ever been in any small village in eastern Romania you'd know. By small i mean... i don't think it's on the map and by poop everywhere i mean cows everywhere.
Well well, diarrhoea kept me more than entertained though. I felt sick the whole time there LOL.
Another thing was the toilet. It's outside. Need i say more? If you're posh you probably don't get what i mean by a romanian outside toilet, it is anything but posh!! It gets damn cold at night, i tell you that from experience. It being a wooden box with a seat much too high for your buttcheeks unless you're about 7ft tall, it adds to the fun. But above all, the best thing about it is that you can't close the door. Options are : close the door and remain in complete black scary darkness OR leave it cracked open and give the people in the village a sneak peek. Yes, it has complete view of the village road. They see you, you see them- lovely.
So there i was, feet suspended, waving to the passer byers. LOL In my mind... Hi...thanks for staring at me poo, how are you today??I'd invite you in my home but as you can SEE i'm busy... Village peeps there are real characters >.<

This is blatantly a very pooey post =) But I had to blog this to give it the Ruru Award for "The Worst, Skunk Repelling, Weather Bitten Toilet".
-crowd cheers-

And still... can you imagine how much worse it would have been to be constipated? Sheesh!!! Would've spent double time there LMAO!

Motherland: The Return Of The Grandma

Left my dad's place yesterday. On our last day together my grandma(his mom) showed up in Bucharest for some doctor's appointment. I love her dearly and all but God why oh why does she have to kiss my neck everytime she sees me??? Kiss on the cheek= normal greeting, but neck grandma kissing= freeeeeeaky. It creeps me out. She hangs on to me and kisses my neck, i swear, like a vampire!! Gross!

I arrived in Iasi at 12:10 am last night and found out that we're invited to go to a party.
I've just been on a train for 6/7 hours, i'm in no party mood, right? Wrong. Because you see, when i'm tired i act just like when i'm drunk, which is very happy-like. LOL. I've never been proper drunk though, so maybe i'm wrong. The party was kick ass! I only knew 2 people-ish there, but i suppose that made it more fun. It was Cosmin's (actor i met 2 years back) birthday. Happy Birthday!!! By the time we got there everyone was pretty drunk, including birthday boy who was wasted and doing some sort of african ritual dance around the room LOL.
Cake...food... and good music. Ze awesomeness!
Left at about 3am when i was very close to getting into someone else's car.
Now... bright and early (for me) we're all (auntie, mom, grandma, uncle) going to the oh so mighty village where my grandma and grandpa live.

Dad and neck-kissing-grandma are back in their own homes. Thanks Dadster for everything and i hope you know i had ze awesomeness time with you, okie dokie? I love the way we take excessive amounts of pictures LOL - every street corner!!

Moving on to mom's side of the family...see how that goes...
No internet btw, that village's too sexeh for the net =) So no updates till i get back to civilisation.
Let's hope a cow doesn't eat me or something. Evil scary creatures.

-happy dance-

Went shopping with my dad today and after 5 hours of looking, walking and switching between 2 particular stores, we went home with a flatscreen Toshiba 81" diagonal TV aaaaaaand a phone. TV for him, phone for me, quite a sweet deal, i think! It makes ze awesomeness of a 15th birthday present! =)
I've never actually had a proper phone that does more than make phonecalls and "atempt" to take photos that are useless to me since i can't download them. That's why this phone.. is fabulously fabulous, fantastically fantastic and well..fabtastic overall!!! And since i'm an official phone geek now here's the nitty gritty.
Damn this thing has everything. I'm in heaven. In materialism heaven LOL.
It's red&black, soft and slidy and dreamy and... OMG i think i'm in love with it! =O
Thank you Dadster, i will love you forever. And they say you can't buy affection. Pshhhhhhhh.
-happy danceeeee-