What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

You Should Play the Drums

You are often hyper, restless, and full of a little too much zeal. However, people may be surprised to know that you can focus your energy well. You are driven and engaged enough to be a great drummer... and you have the stamina to practice for hours. In fact, when you can channel your energy productively, it only increases! You are independent and spirited... but also consistent. You can definitely keep the beat. You work well in a group and contribute heartily - without needing to take the lead. Your dominant personality characteristic: your aggression Your secondary personality characteristic: your precision

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Saturate

If I could never find you, never mind, I would not forget you.
Can I stay alive forever?

Can I feel a chemical reaction?
Because i feel a hideous attraction
Could we share a poison apple?

By Breaking Benjamin

Christianity?

Here i am sat cross legged on my bed with an overheated laptop, debating myself whether i should blog about camp or not. Because if i do, i know all the confusion about Christianity and not much camp-talk will end up being written. I've been putting this off for nearly a week now. Not because i don't know what to say, but because what i have to say about it all overwhelms me every time i think about it, and honestly it has been on my mind most of the time.

I arrived at christian camp thinking "what am i doing here, I'm not even a christian!?" and "look at all these weirdos with Bibles!!". What struck me was how all these "weirdos" somehow connected on a level that i haven't seen before, they believed in something great with all of their heart and understood each other for it. They seemed to have so much love and trust, which i still can't grasp. How can these people be so sure, so understanding, so forgiving and just so... faithful?

I've lived fine so far without belief in God or any other "above all" spirit thingy, so why contradict myself now? Maybe there is just something particularly attractive about so many people having complete trust into something Holy, that won't do them wrong. Someone they can love that loves them back and forgives them whenever they need forgiveness. Someone that makes such sacrifices and expects nothing back, just faith and love? Maybe I've got it all wrong, but that sounds great to me. And yet, it goes against what i believe in. Here's the catch, i believe in facts. But now I'm leaning over to believing that science in a reinforcement of religion, and not an opposite, or a contradiction to it.

I wasn't a christian on camp, and I'm not one now. But God, if you're really there, give me time to give you a true chance, because right now, i can't jump straight in. And save me one of those halos please, they look fun!


<< Umm...yeah. So camp was fun and....interesting!

"Your boob is comin' out of your bra, lemme help you!"
"mmm squidgy!"
"And in and out and in and out and turn around, and in and out and in and out turn around!!" :))
-raises eyebrow-




Don't ask. Really. Don't. Ssssshhht. Just walk away from the scary sock-faced guy.

Camp

So i gave camp a try this year. To begin with i only knew 2 people there who i didn't even share a tent with. This later turned out to be the best, because i have now met so many new people that i now keep in touch with, so yay to that!

Camping out for a week, in the rain, the wind, the cold and the sunny is all that more interesting with people that you don't know. The knowing each other bit didn't take too long and became friendlier and friendlier. Some VERY friendly with each other. =)

I don't have time to give a detailed story or put pictures up so this will be a short overview.

Here it goes:

• I don't regret going.
• In fact, i think it was one of the best times i've had on a trip.
• It was AWESOME.
• The tent didn't flood, which was a bonus.
• It was Christian camp, which at first made me very nervous of going, but in the end kinda made me want to become a christian. Who knew christianity could be so fun?
• There was a barndance. It was like the camp, AWESOME.
• So yeah. It kicked ass. That pretty much sums it up i think.

Half an hour older..but no wiser

It sucks trying to be a people person. LM knocked on my door about half an hour ago wanting to "hang out". Now, my answer to that would've been a clear "ummm how's NO for ya?" but i didn't say that, because nobody that is remotely polite or is trying to be polite(like me) would say that. Still, i could've said it and added "it's not personal, i just feel ill" but then that would be lying- if i choose to sin, i should at least do it properly.

It is personal and how personal it is.... I know that if i "hang out" with this person my brain will be forced to shut down after non-stop mind numbing rambling about her boyfriend. I still got a huge dose of this by just standing at my door, could've been much worse(hours..days..). I did offer her a drink twice, since i was going to listen to this shite i should at least be well hydrated, and plus the drink would've stopped her babbling ocassionally. Selfish, i know.

I tried to reason with the rambling creature and explain that my parents were out, i didn't have a key, i was ill and that i was packing to go camping- all of those should have indicated my desperate attempt NOT to hang out and were also reasonably true(i did have a key, wasn't so ill, and the packing could've waited). I tried, honest to God, but it was all for nothing. She kept talking. For HALF AN HOUR. ON MY DOOR STEP! You know how much a person can do in half an hour? I could get sunburnt in half an hour. I could walk into the forest and be attacked by a bear! I could even clean my room!! All of the above would have been less painful than listening to the mindless bullcrap. Save me.

I have come to the conclusion that my new subtle ways of telling people to fuck off aren't working, so i will go back to my old ways. Where "fuck off" means fuck off ( although i don't know how people can literally fuck off..anyways..) and "shut up and go away" means exactly that.

Good news however, going camping tomorrow, yay! =)
It all balances out.. the good and the rambling..i mean the good and the bad.
God..or whoever is up there, you owe me. Big time.

What Does Your Taste In Music Say About You?

What Your Taste in Music Says About You

Your musical tastes are reflective and complex. You are intellectual to the point of being cerebral. You are very open to new experiences, and even more open to new ideas and theories. Wisdom and personal accomplishment are important to you. You are naturally sophisticated. You are drawn to art, especially art by independent artists. You are likely to be financially well off... and not because you were born that way.

What Does Your Taste in Music Say About You?

Haven't been much of a blogger lately, in fact hardly at all. The only updates in the life of crazy are that:

• It's summer and school's out, yay!
• I'm sun burnt - not so yay!
• There are good things about living here. There's the beach.
• I'm not going to Romania this summer.
• I miss my dad and stepsister.

and let's see what else... hmmm... oh yeah.

• We ran out of peanut butter. it's a catastrophe!

I love you.

Fred

You were leafy
Skinny
And cute to look at.

Saw you one day
Said hey
And you stood still.

Stood as tall as you could
Like a giant
A miniature one.

Bugs crawled over your skin
Luckily not under
What’s your life like?

Must be quite lonely
Your roots stuck
And unholy.

Are you closer to the great fire?
Your fingers underground
Reaching with desire.

But you don’t speak human
And I don’t speak tree
Therefore I cannot relate to thee.

Varamea

You're 18 today. Your mental age is now 7, Happy Birthday! =)
I know i told you i'd bring leaves to you from England, LOL, but somehow the wind blew them away. :(
You, cousin, are one of the people that ironically i know well, but not as well as i'd like to. Moving country didn't help, and i wish we could be closer. Don't get me wrong, you're on my top friends list, and you're a VIP whenever i'm busy on messenger and yet i feel like there's a lot of awesomeness left undiscovered in you. =)

I'm proud of you. You've come a long way and now learning to drive...hmm... i think it'll be a while before i trust you to drive me anywhere =P It'd be more of an adrenaline rush than a journey.

I hope this day is going perfectly for you, because if it isn't, God is broken. Days like this should be nothing but awesomeness. You deserve it, enjoy.

Happy Multi Ani dear cousin!!!
-hugs and kisses-
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