Half an hour older..but no wiser

It sucks trying to be a people person. LM knocked on my door about half an hour ago wanting to "hang out". Now, my answer to that would've been a clear "ummm how's NO for ya?" but i didn't say that, because nobody that is remotely polite or is trying to be polite(like me) would say that. Still, i could've said it and added "it's not personal, i just feel ill" but then that would be lying- if i choose to sin, i should at least do it properly.

It is personal and how personal it is.... I know that if i "hang out" with this person my brain will be forced to shut down after non-stop mind numbing rambling about her boyfriend. I still got a huge dose of this by just standing at my door, could've been much worse(hours..days..). I did offer her a drink twice, since i was going to listen to this shite i should at least be well hydrated, and plus the drink would've stopped her babbling ocassionally. Selfish, i know.

I tried to reason with the rambling creature and explain that my parents were out, i didn't have a key, i was ill and that i was packing to go camping- all of those should have indicated my desperate attempt NOT to hang out and were also reasonably true(i did have a key, wasn't so ill, and the packing could've waited). I tried, honest to God, but it was all for nothing. She kept talking. For HALF AN HOUR. ON MY DOOR STEP! You know how much a person can do in half an hour? I could get sunburnt in half an hour. I could walk into the forest and be attacked by a bear! I could even clean my room!! All of the above would have been less painful than listening to the mindless bullcrap. Save me.

I have come to the conclusion that my new subtle ways of telling people to fuck off aren't working, so i will go back to my old ways. Where "fuck off" means fuck off ( although i don't know how people can literally fuck off..anyways..) and "shut up and go away" means exactly that.

Good news however, going camping tomorrow, yay! =)
It all balances out.. the good and the rambling..i mean the good and the bad.
God..or whoever is up there, you owe me. Big time.

What Does Your Taste In Music Say About You?

What Your Taste in Music Says About You

Your musical tastes are reflective and complex. You are intellectual to the point of being cerebral. You are very open to new experiences, and even more open to new ideas and theories. Wisdom and personal accomplishment are important to you. You are naturally sophisticated. You are drawn to art, especially art by independent artists. You are likely to be financially well off... and not because you were born that way.

What Does Your Taste in Music Say About You?

Haven't been much of a blogger lately, in fact hardly at all. The only updates in the life of crazy are that:

• It's summer and school's out, yay!
• I'm sun burnt - not so yay!
• There are good things about living here. There's the beach.
• I'm not going to Romania this summer.
• I miss my dad and stepsister.

and let's see what else... hmmm... oh yeah.

• We ran out of peanut butter. it's a catastrophe!

I love you.

Fred

You were leafy
Skinny
And cute to look at.

Saw you one day
Said hey
And you stood still.

Stood as tall as you could
Like a giant
A miniature one.

Bugs crawled over your skin
Luckily not under
What’s your life like?

Must be quite lonely
Your roots stuck
And unholy.

Are you closer to the great fire?
Your fingers underground
Reaching with desire.

But you don’t speak human
And I don’t speak tree
Therefore I cannot relate to thee.

Varamea

You're 18 today. Your mental age is now 7, Happy Birthday! =)
I know i told you i'd bring leaves to you from England, LOL, but somehow the wind blew them away. :(
You, cousin, are one of the people that ironically i know well, but not as well as i'd like to. Moving country didn't help, and i wish we could be closer. Don't get me wrong, you're on my top friends list, and you're a VIP whenever i'm busy on messenger and yet i feel like there's a lot of awesomeness left undiscovered in you. =)

I'm proud of you. You've come a long way and now learning to drive...hmm... i think it'll be a while before i trust you to drive me anywhere =P It'd be more of an adrenaline rush than a journey.

I hope this day is going perfectly for you, because if it isn't, God is broken. Days like this should be nothing but awesomeness. You deserve it, enjoy.

Happy Multi Ani dear cousin!!!
-hugs and kisses-
lovies youuuuu

Seb

Dear Sebster,

I hope you're having a great day and an even better weekend overall with excessive hardcore partying, underage sex and alcohol. I am sure that is not how this weekend will go at all, but it's worth hoping.

I can't begin to explain what a great friend you are to me everyday and how much i look up to you. And you know why? You probably don't, since you seem to prefer to hide away in your little world and sadly block everything out of your way, good or bad. I can still see through that armour you put up and can tell you honestly that there's nothing to hide. You're brilliant and you don't know it. Well. I hope you do now, since i just said it. =)

I'm writing this in secret, since as you know, i am not allowed on my computer.
I have to end with wishing you an awesomeness birthday and REMEMBER: make a wish! I always do on an ocassion, silly, but it works...sometimes.

Take care, lotsa love

Ruru xx

Teenage Drama

Leopold aka trusty laptop has been taken away by unfair, mean mean mean parents. AGAIN.
OK so maybe i didn't explain to them that i was going camping for the weekend in enough detail, or actually maybe not at all- i honestly don't recall if i did or did not. Which just links me to being disrespectful, uncaring, unorganised and therefore an airhead.

Other than that, did Relay For Life last weekend with the camping and all, and it was ze awesomeness. A bit sunburnt though and didn't get much sleep for 24 hours. =) I have pictures, but since i have no laptop they're gonna be on later this week or not, depending on how well my persuading skills work.

I'm not meant to be online at all, like EVER so i need to speed this up.
Scratch that, my mom just walked in. Great. Goodbye internet and child rights.