Half an hour older..but no wiser

It sucks trying to be a people person. LM knocked on my door about half an hour ago wanting to "hang out". Now, my answer to that would've been a clear "ummm how's NO for ya?" but i didn't say that, because nobody that is remotely polite or is trying to be polite(like me) would say that. Still, i could've said it and added "it's not personal, i just feel ill" but then that would be lying- if i choose to sin, i should at least do it properly.

It is personal and how personal it is.... I know that if i "hang out" with this person my brain will be forced to shut down after non-stop mind numbing rambling about her boyfriend. I still got a huge dose of this by just standing at my door, could've been much worse(hours..days..). I did offer her a drink twice, since i was going to listen to this shite i should at least be well hydrated, and plus the drink would've stopped her babbling ocassionally. Selfish, i know.

I tried to reason with the rambling creature and explain that my parents were out, i didn't have a key, i was ill and that i was packing to go camping- all of those should have indicated my desperate attempt NOT to hang out and were also reasonably true(i did have a key, wasn't so ill, and the packing could've waited). I tried, honest to God, but it was all for nothing. She kept talking. For HALF AN HOUR. ON MY DOOR STEP! You know how much a person can do in half an hour? I could get sunburnt in half an hour. I could walk into the forest and be attacked by a bear! I could even clean my room!! All of the above would have been less painful than listening to the mindless bullcrap. Save me.

I have come to the conclusion that my new subtle ways of telling people to fuck off aren't working, so i will go back to my old ways. Where "fuck off" means fuck off ( although i don't know how people can literally fuck off..anyways..) and "shut up and go away" means exactly that.

Good news however, going camping tomorrow, yay! =)
It all balances out.. the good and the rambling..i mean the good and the bad.
God..or whoever is up there, you owe me. Big time.